Sparrow's Journal: January 30, 2011

I am going to die.

I am going to die soon.

Okay, some context: I’m now sworn to a pledge to not betray any of the band of misfits we’ve managed to assemble until the end of Winter. If it’s ever broken, we’ll suffer blindness for the rest of the season. Fantastic! I’m crossing my fingers, hoping that Master doesn’t find me before then or else I’ll pretty much be FUCKED. They also spoke of joining the freehold. I did my best to smile through the whole thing though, “Yeah, that sounds like a good idea! I’d love to join your freehold where if I ever betray it I will suffer a brutally painful death! I would never betray you though, not me!”

I won’t give them the satisfaction of killing me though. I’d rather do it myself.

But enough of that.

Some good things happened today.

I was inducted into the Winter Court, with the initiation being obeying their set of laws better than Lestrade. That shouldn’t be difficult considering he does a very bad job of hiding what he’s feeling. I’d like to think I do a good job of concealing it, but I just mask it with a different emotion. Now I have to go completely blank. I think I can handle that.

“Never let them see your weakness Alyssa…” I used to say that to myself all the time. Now I guess it’s “Sparrow,” but whatever.

So, anyway, I’m one step closer to where I’d like to be. Finding out the court’s secrets would surely be of benefit to Master. Their tricks to keeping others hidden, what they know about the other courts and other changelings, internal strife, I’m sure Master would just love it!

The other bonus is that, assuming Winter is good at what they do, Master should have difficulty locating me. Maybe dying can be postponed, just a little bit.

We met some other changelings today. Three of them were fresh out of the hedge, like us. I don’t really care at all for most of these people.

Issac appologized for how he came off yesterday, but I try not to associate myself with too many morons. There’s only so much I can handle.

Barry can’t take a joke, and Bailey’s always up in somebody else’s business.

Tracy (wasn’t it Cindy or something yesterday?) just seems like a typical blonde bitch.

Earl’s a brain-dead brute and I’m still shaken up somewhat at what Hoyle did to me yesterday (rape triggers are fun).

Barren reminds me of my father, and I HATE that he’s probably the person I’m connecting most with. Maybe it was just because he was relatively sober for most of when I was talking to him. I swear if he touches me in any way I wont hesitate to pull the knife I stole (oh yeah I stole a knife).

I don’t know who Sugar Molly is, because she was intoxicated the whole time.

Tob seems nice enough. We’re going to be going out sometime with Zia and Cindy tagging along (it’ll probably get interesting). I figured it’d be nice to have a girl’s night out. I don’t really know what it entails seeing as I’ve never really been on one before… but whatever.

Zia is scared, but seems kind-hearted and sweet. She sort of seems like she’ll end up being the third wheel-type person in a lot of cases.

Ethos is a paranoid moron.

Frost somehow got Tob mixed-up in some pledge business and now she’s extremely upset about it. I pulled him aside to talk about it, but he was completely useless. I have an issue with guys hurting girls in any way. What pisses me off more is he’s joining Winter, meaning I have to spend time with him. Great.

Oh! One thing I’m kind of proud of is that I figured out a way for me to deal with intoxicated people. I’ve come to realize that as long as I’m being an absolute bitch to them, I’m alright with being around them! Good to know. I need to think up a better way to get glamour though.

Something Barren brought to my attention that concerns me… Other people seem to be noticing weird happenings going on. Glowing eyes, powerful ripples in the air, etc. We don’t see them at all. What does that mean!? I think it’s best to keep quiet about it.

I’ll apparently have job now as a mall cop… It’s not ideal, but I don’t have any work experience, so I’ll take what I can get. I’m also getting a place to live through Lestrade. Despite everything, things are shaping up to be better than before I was taken!

I realize this entry is jumping all over the place, but today was kind of just a mess of socialization. Hopefully we can actually do something in the coming days rather than just sitting around.

…I need to work on making some pledges to MY advantage.

Hoping to see the next sunrise,


Sparrow's Journal: January 30, 2011

The Freehold of the Shaded Wing Wyrmling